I noticed that I have a (bad?) habit of saying “no” to things people tell me to do, and then do it anyway. I genuinely mean it when I say “no”, too. I don’t really like people telling me what to do. However, something always brings me back to doing it. Guilt?
For example, just now, I asked my mom if I could get a cup of yogurt. She said “no” because the policy was that I could only eat one cup a day and I already had eaten one today. Then my mom told me to go get her a cup of yogurt and I said “NO” because I was kind of ticked off and then grabbed a banana. However, since I was already in the kitchen to get the banana, I went ahead and got the yogurt, too. WHY AM I LIKE THIS?! I bet my mom noticed this habit so she didn’t say anything when I said “no”. Maybe she thinks I was being sarcastic, though I highly doubt that because she doesn’t know what sarcasm is.
Another way to look at it is that I say no so that people don’t expect me to do it. When I actually do it for them, they are pleased :] But that seems kind of manipulative, doesn’t it? Any way I put it, I sound like a bad person D: D: D:
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Did I just try to analyze my habit?
